I'm Freeeeee

Well readers its been a while since you've been updated and I guess you could say a lot has happened. This July the wife and I had our long awaited vacation to Myrtle Beach planned. 10 days before we were to leave the airline cancelled our charter flight, no reason but "they can" and they would be refunding my trip in full in 10 to 14 business days (it took 16 days actually) So I was beyond upset about the cancellation, but it was decided, suck it up and make it a fun little road trip. So the plans were in motion for us to be driving to Myrtle Beach. I busted my butt the final few days at work to make sure that all payroll was processed and completed before my departure including quarterly payroll tax returns. Well I arrived at work on my last day before vacation time at my usually 730 am to make sure I get enough time in and I was met at the door by the two VP's . Ms. Mary and Mr. Mark. they stopped me before I could even reach my office.

Well they then asked me to enter the conference room and they stood on one side of the table and looked to the corner behind me where I followed their glance and realized that my personal belongings had been packed. Well I looked back at them and asked bluntly "am I fired?" Mary nodded her head in agreement and Mark couldn't even look at me. So I said may I ask why, and Mary responded "I am not at liberty to discuss that with you" I then asked if I would get my vacation pay and she stated yes. I then grabbed my boxes and headed out the door. I couldn't believe this. What had I done? Should I still go on vacation? What am I gonna do? the questions were racing through my mind and the whole time I was shaking.

After digesting the initial shock of this news I became of course bitter as I had done nothing, I called my dance boss right away and she listened to me and offered advice. She said I would be find and we'd be sure to get me something. She really helped calm my nerves. She also said you NEED to go on your vacation so I did. I enjoyed 8 glorious days in the sun with friends and was so proud that we saved our money from the wedding because the trip really didn't cost us any money.

The moment I returned I filed for unemployment and began the job hunt for something part time. I began to realize that this was truly a blessing in disguise because I was not treated fairly at that company at all. For almost two years I was overworked and underpaid.

Well when I returned I went to the computer to see if my final paycheck was direct deposited and it turns out that it wasn't so immediately I called the office to see what the problem was and was told that no one got their money direct deposited and that we would be getting physical checks. So I stated I would pick up the check. Apparently they had hired someone to start the day I left. The company is beyond corrupt and the three people running the company are the masterminds behind it all.

I don't regret the time I spent there because I did good work in a timely manner and I knew what I was doing. There is nothing in my p-file to state otherwise. But who knows what they could falsify up and put in there.

At the end of the day I am free. I am free from dealing with the bullshit that that company put me through. Putting my professional judgment in jeopardy as well as making me work for what a secretary should be paid. I am happy. My attitude is amazing and life is fine. Yes money is tight yes I will miss the money that was made but this too shall pass and I am FREEE from that horrible place.

Ok now...back to some tarot reading.

The Birthday Approaches

Well Folks, I am on the eve of my 27th birthday----yup I can't believe it either. I am excited because I'm looking at it as a new beginning another year ready to make the best of it. I have so much to look forward to. Next week we have dance camp and I'm so excited to start working with the students I really can't wait. Then we have girls weekend away with two of my most favorite ladies around!!!!

Its funny in my last post I made large comments about choosing your good thoughts and my friends its amazing how trying to stay positive really just make life seem ok. I haven't found another part time job yet but I'm thinking the right one just isn't ready to find me yet. It will come in time.

I am sitting at home in front of my lap top and large pad of paper trying to get some choreography set for dance camp next week and I think I'm to excited about my birthday to do it. I feel like a little kid you know getting excited before Christmas or a big vacation.

No huge plans for this birthday, just an early afternoon massage then dinner with some great friends. This may be my first actual birthday party ever...having summer birthday's is often hard because of every ones crazy schedules.

I hope everyone had a great week and they are soaking up the sun as much as they can as the summers end is rapidly approaching.

Until next time readers-----

Thoughts Become Things Choose the Good Ones

Well my readers, its been a while since I have last written and alas I don't have witty comments or feedback on any reality shows to share with you. But I do have lots of personal news to update.

As I write right now I am watching a video titled the secret. I'm pretty sure you might have heard of the book, and yes there is a video of it too. A good friends husband suggested that I watch it and I can't think of a better time for me to be reminded of all of these positive thinking and affirmations.

I went on vacation last week to my most favorite place in this country, Myrtle Beach. I got to see one of my best friends in the whole world and just escape from the realities that I had been dealing with here in cheese land. Well the day before I was to leave on vacation I walked into my horrible office job and was fired on the spot. I was not given a reason and I was not given a chance to even pack up my personals for myself it was done for me. I had seen this coming and thought about it for about two weeks before it happened. I put it out there to the universe that they would let me go and guess what folks it happened.

I shook and was outraged at first, I wasn't even given a reason, they told me they were not at liberty to discuss that with me. I was so upset, should I not go on vacation now, what was I going to do. I didn't have time to plan for this happening. But my friends this awful news truly was a blessing in disguise. I made a pro and con list of that company and I was definitely shocked at the length of the con list. Staying in a piousness atmosphere not only effected me at the job but in my home life, my creative life, and just all around me life. It was terrible. I will not air the company's dirty laundry on this blog because I don't think that the blog would support the length in which that type of blog would need to be to include all the details. Long story short I fretted for about 5 hours after I got home about it and then realized you know what Jessica Marie, you hated that job, you complained daily at the job off the job. It was not worth it. I became a bitter and high strung person (if that is possible considering I'm pretty high strung by myself) And during vacation I didn't worry about it one second.

Today as I sat down to watch the secret I realized that I am so much happier. I literally sat down at my desk and whipped out three great sketches for the sets for my musical theatre company piece I'm doing. I had been meaning to do it for weeks. I just didn't have the spark or the drive to do it. I would sit down to do it and get distracted or feel that I had millions of other things I had to do. I also whipped out another whole class of lesson plans. ONE WHOLE YEAR of them. It just flowed out. I think that eliminating that negativity and poison from my life made me enjoy the day a little more.

I am not stressing that if I had to go to the office to do the payroll and catch up from being gone for so long. I am just so relieved. Tomorrow I get to go to an interview, and spend the rest of the day at the farm with my wife which is going to be great.

I really am feeling optimistic about the future. I always thought it was necessary to have a desk job and benefits and not pursue what makes me happy. Knowing that I am teaching so much more and have the ability and option to just relax a little. Its an amazing feeling. and the best part is I have friends that are so there for me that they have been sending job opportunities my way and of course the support that helps me get through the day. Tami and Jeni have been so great to me and my April too of course its amazing to feel so supported in a time where you feel down and upset. I believe that I am feeling so confident and at ease because they have helped me feel this way.

My friends and readers please take some time to just look at your life and what you think about each day. A wise boss of mine once told me the quote that "thoughts become things, choose the good ones" I have to admit that for song I allowed myself to choose the bad ones and the negative ones. I tell my grandma everyday that you have to stay positive and fight her cancer, well even if its just the thoughts its still the positiveness in which she attacks each day that will get her through the day. I think we all have to keep that in mind its important. So I challenge you to this. Choose one good thought a day. And as the weeks go on add more and more. I would love to hear about every ones positive thoughts. Now I'm not saying that automatically your life will be negative-free or you wont have obstacles to climb. Its how we face those obstacles and attack them. So lets attack them together with positive thoughts and actions.

Remember THOUGHTS BECOME THINGS...CHOOSE THE GOOD ONES!!!!!!!!